Sunday, 17 March 2013

***FAILED**


Well. I have to come and finally admit it.

My 100 days spending Ban...i FAILED.  HUGELY and TOTALLY.. And yup i pretty much feel like this...


I started off with great intentions, and i thought i could do this easily....but i know all i can give are excuses.  Although they're viable to me, at the end of the day they're still just EXCUSES.
Ive had a hard couple of months health wise, and so i fell off spectacularly last month, and thought i could get back on with ease.....
I feel I've let myself down...and worse, i let my mum down. The one person in my life who encourages me to keep going and to do it and why I'm doing it...and i feel worse that I've let her down, than letting me down.....

No. It was harder than i thought.....But WHY was it so hard??
Without going into too much detail of my life, cos lets face it, that's not why you're reading this.....my bargain buys were the only vice i had/have. I don't smoke, rarely drink, don't go out to restaurants, don't spend a fortune on clothes or shoes, or the latest phone....my only weakness is bargain buys, and nail polish and its with these two things weighing heavy on either shoulder, all i can do is say I've failed in THIS 100 day spending ban.

But as the Mythbusters say "Failure is always an option".

I'm drawing a line under it.  My new OWN 100 day spending ban will begin when i return off holiday in June 2013.  This time.....i feel more determined.  I would start the ban now but i want to buy things for the holiday, i want to spend pennies while I'm there -and ok from now until i go, i AM on a spending ban, but not an official one. This is just so i can get from Belfast to Manchester, and back again, enjoy my holiday and spend money on things i cant get here...swim with the dolphins (a life time dream), make sure my dogs are well cared for while I'm away and my cats too.
THEN this will be me.....


Ill take it one day at a time, and ill do it differently this time.  Instead of writing "i didn't buy anything", I'm going write each day what i DID buy -anything -shopping, dog food, cat food, electricity , petrol..ANYTHING.
That will show me where the money is going.  Where i need to cut back (i know where, but it always helps to have it written in front of you in black and white), how i can cut back. And yeah, i think i can do it.

I need to stop kicking myself while I'm down about this and get over it and head forward to the next.

To all the bloggers who took up the challenge and have stayed firmly on the waggon, i completely applaud you. I hope one day i too can say " Yup, i can go 100 days without having to spend on bargains or nail polish"....

until then all i will keep in mind is this.....


Cos really, at the end of the day....that's all anyone can do.  I tried last time, but next time ill try MY BEST.....

And if you got here, thank you for reading the jumble of words and emotions.

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