Thursday, 21 February 2013

**SPENDING BAN WAFFLE** Failing Miserably.......


***WARNING: Waffly one, Skip if you don't want to be bored!!****

What can i say? The spending ban started so well.....and then i treated myself....and treated myself a little more....and Ive come off the wagon in spectacular style and i feel crap about it.

I need to just stop. Tomorrows another day, start afresh....i keep thinking that, but i have to confess to being very well at the moment, and the only thing that cheers me up is retail therapy..I'm not talking £100's of pounds, not even into £50, but i keep thinking "Mum would say "it could be ten pounds towards the holiday"...So Ive let her down, as well as me....

My health hasn't been great since i got home from Mums in January...don't want to go into too much, but obviously i have ME and all the joys that go with it......and I'm so down i just cant think of anything to cheer me up, than a quick cheap spending spree.....

How do i get back on the wagon girls? I'm asking a question i know -DON'T SPEND.  Its easy really..but when its the only thing that's cheering me up on dismal days where i could just crawl back into bed....is it REALLY such a bad thing?? well, yeah -i might not be able to afford my holiday..so it IS a bad thing..I'm not thinking ahead, I'm thinking of NOW, and that's obviously not what i should be doing...

I'm almost crying cos i feel such a failure for falling off.....
I keep seeing phrases such as this:


probably trying to justify it all to myself....

OK....this is it this is where i climb back on that damn wagon and I'm going to stay on it.....encouragement is gratefully appreciated.....scorn isn't!!

Sorry Mum, will get it right this time...and I'm going over the 100 days...I'll keep going.....until this:




Keep hoping for me guys and gals....I'm not so weak as to not climb back up....

Am i alone in falling off? Secretly have you been on the ban and spent a little bit somewhere you shouldn't have? If not i totally applaud you, i wish i could have not done it!! If you have....i guess, so what? Tomorrow's another day, a fresh start and a chance to get back on the wagon before it pulls away forever...

Good luck to all those on this, i didn't realise how hard it was going to be until i got further into it.....
But we can do it - if i can, anyone can :)

Thanks for getting this far into the spending ban waffle....i really appreciate you taking the time to see my thoughts, thank you.

2 comments:

  1. Aw don't beat yourself up about it hun, you were doing well, deserved a treat and you say - tomorrow is another day xx

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  2. Oh thank you hun........today is another day....but theres so much temptation out there...!!!!
    Keep strong right?

    Thank you so much for reading this and taking the time to reply!!!
    xx

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